Ups and downs of weight loss

I find it overwhelming!

Okay the question would be to myself why is it this way?

Stress Money building a house things not moving atthe pace I want them to go.

When I feel overwhelmed My best friend becomes what I put in my mouth. Whatever my hands can grab.

Its frustrating because I try and keep things out of the house that would not be healthy Like brownies cakes chips ect ect.. Everything my tongue and mind think is wonderful.

Of course I have learned that vanilla Fat free yogurt fruit and a little granola gives me the satisfying sensation.

I have put back on probably close to 20 lbs I have lost I feel like I have failed myself. It is so frustrating I get so angry with myself and I beat myself up over the LBS. It just Sucks. Why can I not lose the weight and keep it off. It frustrates the hell out of me. So Now I am back on Weight watchers counting my points and being good. Still have not started working out again. I have a desire to work out I enjoy it but the motivation is not there. :-( If only I can get the drive I had for 2 yrs back.

I sometimes wish that someone else would come think about whats for dinner figure out the points. Heck I wonder what it would be like to be a millionaire and not have to worry about weight have people at your disposal to come meet you force you to work out cook for you.. Of course I kinda like cleaning it gives me a satisfaction of being useful. But still to not have to figure out what to eat not just for me but everyone else as well.

Dreams I know!

Work is picking up again so I am happy about that Next week is booked and busy. Now all the rain that is still coming daily is really putting a damper on the girls coming out riding. I will not complain because We need a great Garden so we can get canning. We are completely out of canned squash and getting mighty low on tomato's.

Life in the world Of Julie can be draining now to get my mind to shut down before 1;30 in the morning so I can start getting to sleep a little earlier Not much to ask for HUH!

Changing of times

I can sit and talk and be grumpy about all the changes. Why do that when you can embrace change and except what you can not change. Easier said then done.

Between the economy and cost of living climbing higher and higher sometimes life feels like a loosing battle. In the end Life is worth living just look at yourself as the life raft that floats through life and will never sink.

Work has been very busy I am now officially a photographer House and animal caregiver and a crafter. My girls come out to ride from time to time when the weather cooperates with sessions.

Homer and I are getting all our ducks in a row to start building the land will officially be transferred in July. We are in search of a good architect we are doing research to make sure what we want in our new home. I am blessed I will be staying close to my parents with them aging I want to stay close to be here for them when they need me.

Homer just finished up school so summer break is in. He makes me so proud he has kept his 4.0 GPA I know the day he is officially done with school and graduates he is not going to know what to do with himself.

Lifes changes are worth living one day at a time.

The Challenges of Life

Well here we are one month gone of 2011.

So many challenge's weight loss, work, weather, and the frustrations of trying to find my way. Some days it feels like I know everything that I need other days I am so lost.

Today is just another day I woke up and the weather was perfect all to let the temperature drop 20 degrees and make it a cold windy and miserable to even be out for a long period. The weather is going to be in the 60s Saturday. I have not had a ridding lesson since before the second weekend of January it is so wet and the horses look like big mud balls.

On the upside I am working for the next two weeks I have fallen in love with this barn and I have goals for what I would like in a future barn. I am enjoying being involved with horses cleaning stalls the smell the sound and the work. It is so nice!

As for trying to find my way with weight loss I am back on track of eating healthier and trying to stick with a yoga routine to start off with. I am so frustrated because a year ago I lived to workout and I took a few months off and I am in a black hole that I keep trying to dig out of and I have not fully come up. I am finding it hard not to crave my junk food but eventually the cravings will go away.

I am looking forward to warmer weather and seeing the flowers pop up out of the ground only time will give me what I look forward to seeing.

Only time will bring me peace that I need but I am not sure what type of peace I need yet.

Friends come and Go but Depression sticks with you for a life time.

The March Contiues

Okay so here it is Friday the 8Th of October. It is absolutely beautiful outdoors. I am sitting here at the dinning room table looking out the bay window ant the chickens and squirrel scurrying around. Yes I am blessed I would be even more blessed if I was out there enjoying the sunshine. I have work to do. So I will sit here and work on Photos. I have been blessed the last few weeks with wonderful flow of work. I took a family whom the Daughter and Son in law are close friends and we went to some battlefields and did a photo shoot so beautiful. I had so much fun! Hoping they love the Photos as much as I do.

As for my Healthy life style I am down 6 lbs WOW I freaking flipped out I was shocked I guess this counting point thing does work. :-D Who knew and it is so easy! I am continuing my daily work outs and eating healthy and I feel great! I love that I can eat what I want but I hold myself accountable for the mishaps So I am learning.

My ridding lessons are on hold it seems we all are doing the fall get aways. I am looking forward to seeing friends I have not seen in over a year. I so wished we lived closer. Of course I would prefer to live closer to them Mountain cool weather no bugs yes sounds like heaven until the winter dumps 5 ft of snow on ya. LOL

Well guess I need to scoot and do some work.

Eat healthy Be strong IN the end it will all be worth it.

Good morning! I hope this finds you in Great favor and in an up lifted mood. Sometimes we do not look at the spiritual side of working out.

God put us here to enjoy all the wonderful things and sometimes we find us over enjoying. Of course this is the conclusion I have found myself in since I married. Competitively eating with my husband who can put the food down.

My weight loss journey has been tuff. I actually stepped away from working out for a bit over the summer I enjoyed it but in a weird way missed it. Who knew I could miss sweating and putting myself through pain.

I have had a few loss's that can cause depression but God held me up and pushed me through those times. I get extremely depressed when I work out and am not changing. I find that to be a test in itself.

I am now working on the Wii Fit plus I do 30 minutes of the yoga. Then I will change over to the Wii Active ~more~ and do 30 minute of aerobic Step fast. I love this because this burns so many calories. Also I do the dance segment on the first Wii active.

I let a friend borrow the Wii active more yesterday. I found this to be tough since I use it practically everyday. It also gives me the option to do something different. Change who likes that?

Stay strong ask for the strength and amazing how God will give it to you. Determination,Inspiration and Dedication! Three things we have in life and Support from friends. They say you should hang out with healthy like minded people. Well, Most of my friends are skinny. So what am I supposed to live in a hole and not see anyone. LOL. Not I just have to be determined and stick to my dedication and get the support I need from friends. In the end We are thankful for what we have and the journey it took to get me here.

I hope you will come and join in the fun to a fitter you. I know the feeling of failure the feeling of not achieving goals. It is not about the fall you may take it is about the opportunity you do not grasp to take your life back and take control of who you are as an individual. I do not want to be the person with the number on my back in a clinic or having serious health issues. I prefer to face the fear to tackle the weight and to enjoy my life as a healthy woman not terrified of being over weight or struggling to walk or breath.

Your choice to be a healthier you. It is your decision as well as Mine. I am here for all my friends support a shoulder for when we fall and arms pumped in the air for great success. I have High hopes for all my friends who have decided to become determined, inspired and dedicated to saving themselves!

Hugs and much love.

Time to go work out!

Blaze Time

I have really enjoyed this past week. I started Playing and ridding Blaze who I have dubbed the wonder horse. He is so amazing. I am truly blessed.

Blaze and I went out on our first trail ride by ourselves and he did great. Deer being jumped squirrels scurrying along the path doves flying out of the thicket he stiffened up but did not flinch. He made me so proud. We also rode right along RT 10 motorcycles semis and cars seem not to phase Blaze in the least.

Of course I pray every time I jump on for a safe and good ride. I have been blessed thus so far. Of course If it is not a good ride there is a lesson to learn.

Well I finally finished editing photos that where taken at a shoot in the OBX. The Family was extremely Happy for their photos and they turned out beautifully.

I have the drive to photograph and I am Loving my life so Taking it one day at a time.

The ride Goes on!

I know I know it has been such a long time!

Summer was Great Hotter then the typical Virginia summer. I lived in the pool or in the house.

We did get to go on vacation. We really enjoyed our time. We went to Corolla NC even though it was cut short do to Hurricane Earl.

Now school is back in and time is continuing on. I started a Bible study today on the book of Ruth. I think this will be a wonderful study.

I decided since Homer is in school and has not had much time to do anything extra besides the half to get done list I should start working Blaze. I took him out today and we had an absolutely wonderful 2 hour ride. He is so much fun to ride! He is a little on the lazy side But he was a good boy and he really showed me some really nice flexion. He is such a talented boy.

Nicole came out today and ground worked Doc. Molly is doing great with Giving beginner ridding lessons. Seems like life is a blessing every day.