~Catching Up~

So it has been a year, I am so bad about keeping up at time so sorry. There is a lot of changes happing since my last posted.
 Where do I start!
 I have taken on a Job or two with a local city school. I love working with Kids so it makes me smile most days. I am working as a photographer but decided to not peruse it as a full time job. I needed to be around people more often also I am  giving riding lessons and caring for horse farms when the owners take vacation. It keeps me busy but I love it.
Well, My kids Molly,Blaze and Doc are doing well Fat and happy in the Fields of lush green grass right now. We have had a pretty good amount of rain but it is HOT AND HUMMID all at the same time. Blaze gets started on a Biotin for his shedding frog AKA hoof condition other then that nothing really has changed I have consider finding a new home for Doc But he seems to be stuck like glue to us and he would not be happy away from all he knows.  Molly is still being a good girl and taking care of all her kids that ride her. The worlds best horse in my eyes.
As for my personal life things are going as they say smoothly. We finally had land perked waiting to here from the lawyer to see where the drive will be going in and we can get the surveyors out to do there thing then the construction will start.. It feels like it will never start. I know there will be many LONG nights ahead of us with the building of the house but I am up for it.
I have been running around like crazy this summer. Daphney has been spending most of the summer with me. No complaints, she is such a talented beautiful individual. She has been a great help and makes me laugh so that keeps me young.
 In a little over a month it is back to work and Life will slow down to the point of not being on the road all the time. LOL thats a little cliché since I drive a school bus. We are waiting to here about the jobs with in the school that I work beings that they are trying to bring in an outside company so not sure whats going to happen with that position. I am okay with whatever takes place though. I am blessed to have so much in my life. Well, Until next time I promise it will not be so long in between blogs. Have a great one.

The Changes within ones self

Blaze & My beautiful Niece

"The only time it's too late to change yourself is when you're dead. Until then, you're simply making excuses or lying to yourself."

I am on a long journey. It is the a journey that will become my life. To become the person I want to see in the mirror is not something that happens overnight but happens everyday with every breath I take. There are goals and obstacles, it is not an easy task to look at a scale weekly or look in the mirror to see what I am and things I am determined to change.

In Life, I find myself dwelling on things I would like to achieve someone I can be proud of. The first thing I have learns is to judge myself. Nothing is wrong with judging oneself as long as you do not judge others. Judging myself has taught me self discipline.

Second thing I have learned is setting goals that are reasonable for myself. Not what critic doctors or friends say I should be doing for myself but what I want to do for myself. My goals are set to make the right decision for myself for me not to fail. I set goals on my weight loss that where crazy then I realized I was asking to much of myself at one time to set something smaller that was healthy and satisfying with in my own body.

Third thing and the most important thing above all is I am not alone I have God I have Family and I have friends who are there to love me for Me and who I am. To take me as I am! I am not perfect nor will I ever be perfect. I do not want to be perfect my goal is to be happy and Love myself completely from the inside out!

So these are a few things I have learned in the past few weeks. I am down 6.5 Lbs in three weeks. Way above my goal and that is okay but my goal is still the same if I lose more great If I lose my goal weekly Awesome. It will be a long road ahead of my but I have given three weeks of my life so why not stick to it and keep going. Life is to short for me to be unhappy with myself in any way.

Try new things something I am also learning that it is good to try new things. Even things I would be like, "HECK NO I am not eating that" surprisingly 9 out of 10 times I really like it.. Trying new things is not so bad. TO come out side of the box is an adventure.

Now since that is all my weight loss stuff. Onto the Doctor stuff. I have been released for a little bit more activity. I am so afraid to do yoga yet. I have picked up my activities cleaning pastures and walking a bit more being careful and focusing on bending properly and breathing right. Who knew you had to do special things to protect ones back.

As for summer fun My niece was out with me last week but went home Friday. Then the Family took a fishing trip to the bay Saturday. It was such a perfect day to be out on the pier. Wonderful breeze! I did get a bit more sun then I wanted but that is okay. My nephew from South Carolina is up for the month of July. He is adjusting to the new environment pretty well. He came to the barn this morning and helped clean paddocks and stalls. he loved on the horses and the cats. We came into the house and had some breakfast but he pretty much entertains himself.

As for the house plans I get so frustrated with Homer at times but he is so busy and I am bound and determined not to be a nagging wife to get the ball going. So I will sit in the back seat and let him keep driving. I guess as a woman my mind is set on yesterday and not tomorrow. I am just ready for my own house. Where it is just Homer and Myself! I am learning that patience must bring something good in the outcome.

The horses are doing wonderful the Vet came out and said they where all in good health except for the boys being a little on the thin side but she said for me to continue what I am doing That with them being locked up until their full meals are finished should help put on the pounds. I sure hope so cause it is costing me a fortune for all the extra feed.

As for Photography work I have had a bit here and there but I have not been pushing it this year due to my back. I can not haul all my gear around without my back being pulled. So I am being safe so I do not become sorry.

The comfort of the discomfort

Second visit to the Chiropractor today, my sciatica is just giving me a hard time. Cramping my lifestyle completely. I have lots of time to watch tv and read e-mails and listen to music and thank goodness I have books. Oh the best part of being Down and out is I have permission to hang around in the pool as much as I would like. So there is positives to the negatives.

So No horses no lifting no carrying heavy objects like my camera Gear. GRRR. Okay so I need the time off I have Graduations coming up this weekend And yes I will limit my gear and only carry 2 lenses and have someone else haul the camera gear so I can take photos It will be okay..

Oh as for walking Limited how in the world do you limit walking. So I guess the all day shopping sprees in Williamsburg is out of the picture. Glad I got my last fix in with mom yesterday. Of course I am paying for it today and Having to fork out more money a week for two appointments instead of one. :-0

I am learning to focus when I sit ad stand Making sure I look straight forward Bending a certain way like a weight lifter so I guess all in all I am going to recover with much Knowledge so another positive. Oh a secret positive is I love the massages I get after my treatment. Oh baby does it feel GREAT! The nap during the session is nice as well. :-)

As for my weight loss. I have not weighed in this week yet. I did find some new recipes and me and my sweet tooth fell in love with this one.

1 box angel food cake

1 can of lite pie filling

mix just the cake mix and the filling together put in a 9x13 cake pan bake at 350 for 20 -30 min.. It is so yummy and so low fat ..

The Loss is on

Well I officially did a weigh in yesterday and I am back on track and going strong. Unfortanatly I can not start working out due to my back.. I get to go see the chiro tomorrow. Hopefully he will have good news and I can step up and move on and start working out or doing something...

My last farm owner comes home today so things should slow down for a few weeks. Graduations are starting up So I have my camera Cleaned up and ready to roll.

I had 28 baby chicks hatch this past weekend. I will wait a few weeks before tackling another round of chicks then that should be all the hatching I will be doing this summer I hope.

The Gardens are doing wonderful this year. I think this will be the year of squash and cucumbers. I am so happy about that since last year we did not get enough..

Time keeps on moving and I need to do as well

Ups and downs of weight loss

I find it overwhelming!

Okay the question would be to myself why is it this way?

Stress Money building a house things not moving atthe pace I want them to go.

When I feel overwhelmed My best friend becomes what I put in my mouth. Whatever my hands can grab.

Its frustrating because I try and keep things out of the house that would not be healthy Like brownies cakes chips ect ect.. Everything my tongue and mind think is wonderful.

Of course I have learned that vanilla Fat free yogurt fruit and a little granola gives me the satisfying sensation.

I have put back on probably close to 20 lbs I have lost I feel like I have failed myself. It is so frustrating I get so angry with myself and I beat myself up over the LBS. It just Sucks. Why can I not lose the weight and keep it off. It frustrates the hell out of me. So Now I am back on Weight watchers counting my points and being good. Still have not started working out again. I have a desire to work out I enjoy it but the motivation is not there. :-( If only I can get the drive I had for 2 yrs back.

I sometimes wish that someone else would come think about whats for dinner figure out the points. Heck I wonder what it would be like to be a millionaire and not have to worry about weight have people at your disposal to come meet you force you to work out cook for you.. Of course I kinda like cleaning it gives me a satisfaction of being useful. But still to not have to figure out what to eat not just for me but everyone else as well.

Dreams I know!

Work is picking up again so I am happy about that Next week is booked and busy. Now all the rain that is still coming daily is really putting a damper on the girls coming out riding. I will not complain because We need a great Garden so we can get canning. We are completely out of canned squash and getting mighty low on tomato's.

Life in the world Of Julie can be draining now to get my mind to shut down before 1;30 in the morning so I can start getting to sleep a little earlier Not much to ask for HUH!

Changing of times

I can sit and talk and be grumpy about all the changes. Why do that when you can embrace change and except what you can not change. Easier said then done.

Between the economy and cost of living climbing higher and higher sometimes life feels like a loosing battle. In the end Life is worth living just look at yourself as the life raft that floats through life and will never sink.

Work has been very busy I am now officially a photographer House and animal caregiver and a crafter. My girls come out to ride from time to time when the weather cooperates with sessions.

Homer and I are getting all our ducks in a row to start building the land will officially be transferred in July. We are in search of a good architect we are doing research to make sure what we want in our new home. I am blessed I will be staying close to my parents with them aging I want to stay close to be here for them when they need me.

Homer just finished up school so summer break is in. He makes me so proud he has kept his 4.0 GPA I know the day he is officially done with school and graduates he is not going to know what to do with himself.

Lifes changes are worth living one day at a time.

The Challenges of Life

Well here we are one month gone of 2011.

So many challenge's weight loss, work, weather, and the frustrations of trying to find my way. Some days it feels like I know everything that I need other days I am so lost.

Today is just another day I woke up and the weather was perfect all to let the temperature drop 20 degrees and make it a cold windy and miserable to even be out for a long period. The weather is going to be in the 60s Saturday. I have not had a ridding lesson since before the second weekend of January it is so wet and the horses look like big mud balls.

On the upside I am working for the next two weeks I have fallen in love with this barn and I have goals for what I would like in a future barn. I am enjoying being involved with horses cleaning stalls the smell the sound and the work. It is so nice!

As for trying to find my way with weight loss I am back on track of eating healthier and trying to stick with a yoga routine to start off with. I am so frustrated because a year ago I lived to workout and I took a few months off and I am in a black hole that I keep trying to dig out of and I have not fully come up. I am finding it hard not to crave my junk food but eventually the cravings will go away.

I am looking forward to warmer weather and seeing the flowers pop up out of the ground only time will give me what I look forward to seeing.

Only time will bring me peace that I need but I am not sure what type of peace I need yet.

Friends come and Go but Depression sticks with you for a life time.